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lucky no.777 issue no.20
For the last newsletter of each month I select 3 reader questions and offer advice based off what the tarot cards say! Want to submit a question for next month’s newsletter? You may do so right here bby!
Reader question #1: Feeling really scared and overwhelmed between the state of our country along with moving out and being an adult in the city trying to afford everything. I feel like I bit off more than I could chew, and am worried that I’m just gonna be fucked even though I work two part time jobs (where the hours are not so great atm) and trying to be an actor. I’m wondering if I should just quit even though I don’t want to.
It’s eclipse season too babe, so buckle up! I am so sorry you’re feeling it all right now. Let’s get into the cards! 1st we have the 10 of Wands. This card represents a heavy burden, which feels pretty spot on for what you are describing. Everything is insanely expensive rn (coffee is $8, 1 bagel with lox is a cute$24!), and I know from experience that working multiple jobs is never easy. This card reminds us that yes, shit is hard right now, but like everything in life, it is TEMPORARY. Try to put in the hard work now, so that you can accomplish your goals. Remember that right now you’re navigating a big transition, and doing the best you can! So be gentle with yourself and give yourself more grace! Trust that the dust will settle. When I was actively auditioning, I would try to remind myself that the survival jobs are just there to pay the rent and provide the funds for acting class. I know firsthand it’s not easy, but perhaps try to not stress too hard about work, and focus more on THE WORK which is acting, which is why you moved to the city. Right now you’re burned out. So, take this time to stop and examine what is working. Write that down! Then, reflect and journal on what might need to be changed or adjusted. My advice would be work smarter, not harder. Does that mean finding a different side hustle? Picking up new random gigs to help supplement your income with better hours? Signing up for a new acting intensive or improv? Putting on your own show at Green Room 42? Trust that the end is in sight, and everything you’re doing is leading you on the right path. I believe it was Cara Rose who said it best re survival jobs while acting, something like, find the one that works best for you so you can worry less about shitty shifts and bad energy, and more about auditioning as much as you can and getting booked and blessed hunni. Don’t quit. You just gotta keep climbing. I promise it gets easier! You’ve got this! Especially because your second card is the Page of Swords. This is a card full of passion, energy, enthusiasm. If you’re curious about a project, then let’s Celine Dion SHALL WE GO FOR IT?! Follow your passions and go where your true energy lies. I wonder if that is what’s going to start making all the difference. You just moved to the city hunni! It’s too soon to be throwing in the towel!
Reader question #2: hey! in my creative bag and planning a huge event... but also my bday is coming up in april. (i'm an aries!) but also i'm going to hang out with my crush and me putting my all into my career has sort of made romantic life take a back seat, i have get good vibes from this capricorn. we were collaborators but it feels like we're transitioning into friendship. and i like them but idk what it means! or how to pursue desire in a healthy and non withholding/not over the top way. and i can't get distracted from my mission. advice?
Congrats on being in your creative bag!!! Obsessed with that for you! Ok sounds like you’ve got conflicting feelings for a collaborator turned crush. First up, we’ve got the World. This is a card of completion, or if you haven’t reached the finish line yet, you’re very close. If loose ends remain, tie them up. Now is the time to reflect on your journey and honor your achievements! My hunch is that until this project you’re creating gets put out into the world, now is not the time to confess or act on any crushy feelings. I wonder if once that’s done, you’ll have more information which might inform whether he really is a crush, or just someone you collaborate well with and want to keep making art with without complicating it by involving feelings. Your second card is the Tower which means there will be sudden change! Chaos! A revelation! An awakening! How delicious and just in time for eclipse season! Again, my hunch is that once you put this creation into the world, you will know whether this is a crush for real. Perhaps the collaborator might even confess?! It’s almost giving Gossip Girl when Vanessa and Dan finally get together, idk why that’s the image in my brain here. I also would argue it’s good that your romantic life has taken a back seat because tower encourages us that we are doing isn’t working, so I’d like to think that by you focusing on the creative, you were able to really lean into classic Tower energy. Proud of you. Keep making dope art please!!!!! And a very happy birthday to you my aries angel!!
Reader question #3: I find myself taking care of everyone around me (family, friends, coworkers, strangers, the literal world) and trying to solve all their problems - even when they don’t ask for my help!! It often leads to my burnout and sometimes to relationship dynamics that are one-sided ((I give, they take, I am resentful)). I know where this pattern started (childhood trauma!) but I am having trouble breaking it. How can I release this compulsion to fix everything for everyone while still holding onto my sensitive and nurturing spirit?
Hello gorge! It sounds like from what you’re telling me you are most definitely an empath, and I am so sorry to hear you’re feeling resentful, honestly makes a lot of sense!! Not a fan of one sided dynamics for you!! Thank you for being so incredibly sensitive and nurturing!! We need more of that in the world!!! Ok first up you got the 6 of Wands. This is a card that means you have achieved your goals, so now is the time to celebrate and relax. In the context of your advice question, I would take this to mean that you need to find ways to prioritize recharging your battery and focus on you right now. I want you to find ways to make sure you’re filling your own cup the same way you do everyone else, and that can also mean setting strong boundaries with others who are draining you. The wise witch who taught me tarot did workshops on being an empath and would talk about how difficult it is to not let other people’s emotions impact you. This might sound insane, and I swere it’s not because I have Ariana Grande on the brain (I always do sorry!! eternal sunshine the short film drops in a mere 48 hours c’mon daddy!), but I want you to visualize being in a Glinda bubble. The bubble is protection from other people’s energy. I want you to find ways to protect your own energy, so doing things that recharge your battery, while also remaining sensitive and nurturing. It won’t be easy, but I think you can do both. This goes hand in hand with your second card, the 3 of Swords which is all about protecting your energy. This card also means emotional release. Whether it’s a long overdue journal sesh, weeping in pigeon pose, or going to a rage cage, I think you need to a find a way to release all of these feelings over burnout and feeling taken advantage of. I also would encourage you to speak up! It’s ok to tell your friends that it feels one sided. It’s ok to tell strangers you cannot engage or help them right now. I like to think of the turtle analogy my college acting professor loved to use when giving us advice about being in the industry. Be like a turtle. Hard shell for protection! But soft underbelly to remain gentle and caring! Also good shit to bring up in therapy! Patterns are hard to break, and the fact that you’re already this self aware is incredible! I believe in you!! Take care of you first. I love you so much!!
💗💗💗 your advice, your cards and you!